Really Questioning Things

I’ve wasted another day troubleshooting my Apple computer at work and the evening working on my MacMini that I just fixed a few months ago. It’s really brought me back to a place I was earlier in the year after spending a month in Haiti serving the people just days after the earthquake.

About two months after that life-changing experience, I began talking with my wife about the idea of becoming missionaries and serving people who have needs far greater than wasting 5 hours working on my annoying computers. Even in that type of work,I will still be reliant on a computer to communicate, but I believe I would be less dependent on them daily. I’m really beyond wasting needless hours trying to figure out why I don’t have sound on my computer, why my editing software doesn’t want to edit video, or where to store 10 terabytes worth of video and photos. At the same time, I have to be honest and wonder how much I could actually give up?

Knowing who I am, I would still want to take pictures and edit together videos. Would I end up in the same situation but with even less resources? Or would I, at the end of he day, realize that it’s importance is far less than the rest that I had accomplished? All of these are questions that currently have no clear answer for me. What is clear is that I am overwhelmed by how much technology simplifies but complicates my life and saves but wastes my time. I didn’t realize that being a “creative” would actually end up being 95% techie/problem solver. If I have to problem solve,I would much rather figure out how to provide the world with clean water, stop sex trafficking, end hunger, and offer hope through a loving God …to name a few. That’s what I’m passionate about and what I want to focus my time on….whether through creative or getting my hands dirty. Solutions to big problems…not missing audio drivers and hard drives with permission errors. So, where does this leave me? Really questioning things.

We look like we could fit the bill.

(All the old school film people are rolling their eyes and telling me I need to try editing film before I complain about computer problems….I know. At the same time…more is expected and much quicker.)